I’m invisible.

It all began to make sense, the blank stares, the lack of response, the way
one of the kids will walk into the room while I’m on the phone and ask to be
taken to the store. Inside I’m thinking, “Can’t you see I’m on the phone?”
Obviously not. No one can see if I’m on the phone, or cooking, or sweeping
the floor, or even standing on my head in the corner, because no one can see
me at all.

I’m invisible.

Some days I am only a pair of hands, nothing more: Can you fix
this? Can you tie this? Can you open this? Some days I’m not a pair of
hands; I’m not even a human being. I’m a clock to ask, “What time is it?”
I’m a satellite guide to answer, “What number is the Disney Channel?” I’m a
car to order, “Right around 5:30, please.”

I was certain that these were the hands that once held books and the eyes
that studied history and the mind that graduated summa cum laude – but now
they had disappeared into the peanut butter, never to be seen again. She’s
going … she’s going… she’s gone!

One night, a group of us were having dinner, celebrating the return of a
friend from England. Janice had just gotten back from a fabulous trip, and
she was going on and on about the hotel she stayed in. I was sitting there,
looking around at the others all put together so well. It was hard not to
compare and feel sorry for myself as I looked down at my out-of-style dress
it was the only thing I could find that was clean. My unwashed hair was
pulled up in a banana clip and I was afraid I could actually smell peanut
butter in it.

I was feeling pretty pathetic, when Janice turned to me with a beautifully
wrapped package, and said, “I brought you this.” It was a book on the great
cathedrals of Europe. I wasn’t exactly sure why she’d given it to me until I
read her inscription: “To Charlotte, with admiration for the greatness of
what you are building when no one sees.”

In the days ahead I would read – no, devour – the book. And I would discover
what would become for me, four life-changing truths, after which I could
pattern my work:

No one can say who built the great cathedrals – we have no record of their
names.

These builders gave their whole lives for a work they would never see
finished.

They made great sacrifices and expected no credit.

The passion of their building was fueled by their faith that the eyes of God
saw everything.

A legendary story in the book told of a rich man who came to
visit the cathedral while it was being built, and he saw a workman carving a
tiny bird on the inside of a beam. He was puzzled and asked the man,
“Why are you spending so much time carving that bird into a beam that will
be covered by the roof? No one will ever see it.” And the workman replied,
“Because God sees.”

I closed the book, feeling the missing piece fall into place.
It was almost as if I heard God whispering to me, “I see you,
Charlotte. I see the sacrifices you make every day, even when no one around
you does. No act of kindness you’ve done, no sequin you’ve sewn on, no
cupcake you’ve baked, is too small for me to notice and smile over. You are
building a great cathedral, but you can’t see right now what it will
become.”

At times, my invisibility feels like an affliction. But it is not a disease
that is erasing my life. It is the cure for the disease of my own
self-centeredness. It is the antidote to my strong,
stubborn pride.

I keep the right perspective when I see myself as a great
builder. As one of the people who show up at a job that they will never see
finished, to work on something that their name will never be
on.

The writer of the book went so far as to say that no cathedrals could ever
be built in our lifetime because there are so few people willing to
sacrifice to that degree.

When I really think about it, I don’t want my son to tell the friend he’s
bringing home from college for Thanksgiving, “My mom gets up at 4 in the
morning and bakes homemade pies, and then she hand bastes a turkey for three
hours and presses all the linens for the table.” That would mean I’d built a
shrine or a monument to myself. I just want him to want to come home. And
then, if there is anything more to say to his friend, to add, “You’re gonna
love it there.”

As mothers, we are building great cathedrals. We cannot be seen if we’re
doing it right. And one day, it is very possible that the World will marvel,
not only at what we have built, but at the beauty that has been added to the
world by the sacrifices of invisible women.

To my friends who are mothers and understand the sacrifice of true love and
deserve to know the greatness they create by making that sacrifice.

Author Unknown

(this post is edited today May 9th with a new picture of Isaiah – learning to eat)

If I live in a house of spotless beauty with everything in place,

But have not Love, I am a housekeeper – not a homemaker.

If I have time for waxing, polishing, and decorative achievements,

But have not Love, my children learn cleanliness – not godliness.

Love leaves the dust in search of a child’s laugh.

Love smiles at the tiny fingerprints on a newly cleaned window.

Love wipes away the tears before it wipes up the spoiled milk.

Love picks up the child before it picks up the toys.

Love is present through the trials.

Love reprimands, reproves and is responsive.

Love crawls with the baby, walks with the toddler, runs with the child.

Then stands aside to let the youth walk into adulthood.

Love is the key that opens salvation’s message to a child’s heart.

Before I became a mother I took glory in my house of perfection.

Now I glory in God’s perfection of my child.

As a mother, there is much I must teach my child,

But the greatest of all is LOVE.

Unknown author